Dinner Parties & Breakdowns

So...I did follow through with my idea for the dinner. We had about 10 ppl over at the apartment, and Justin and I made a huge dinner for everyone. I did the meatballs in mushroom sauce, and I also did a sausage and zucchini casserole. I made the cold pesto pasta salad, spinach and artichoke dip, and virgin margaritas. Justin made a coffee cake, and apple bread. We also had just a regular salad. I tried to make an ice cream cake...but it didn't freeze in time for the party. It did freeze later, however, and it came out pretty well, if I do say so myself. Anyways...the party was a smash hit, and I really enjoyed having everyone over to see the apartment.

On a slightly more depressing note, I haven't been doing too well emotionally recently. There is a lot going on for me right now personally, and I have been really stressed out about school, finding a job, and family situations. I kinda had a mini breakdown tonight, but I'm hoping that it helped me come to some conclusions and make some decisions that will help me climb out of the little hole I'm in. I may need help enforcing my decisions, and there are some people (if you think you know what I'm talking about than you are probably one of them) who will have to help me with that. Sorry to be so cryptic...I just dont feel like discussing certain things on a public blog. ANYWAYS...the point is that if I have a been a little short with you recently, or if I have seemed out of character or just completely out of it, I apologize. Hopefully things will start to improve soon.

Good luck to everyone starting school tomorrow!!! (Or I guess today...lol. I should really sleep, huh?)

Luv yallz!
~Trish

I Should Use My Kitchen

I'm going to start cooking. Cooking sounds fun. Now that I have my apartment, I have a kitchen that I can easily use...so why not? I'm going to try to start tomorrow...but that may or may not happen depending on what people's dinner plans are. I will, however, go buy groceries tomorrow. I think I'm going to start with a recipe I found for meatballs in mushroom soup, and accompany that with a simple cold pesto pasta salad. Anybody want to join me? :-)

Observation #2

Men are bad for a Woman's sanity.

Observation #1

Alcohol is the devil.

Add Joy to Your Daily Life

Pay as much attention to the things that are working positively in your life as you do to those that are giving you trouble.

Rake a big pile of leaves every fall and jump in it with someone you love.

Memorize your favorite love poem.

Learn three knock-knock jokes so you will always be ready to entertain children.

Don't let weeds grow around your dreams.

Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.

Regardless of the situation, react with class.

Let some things remain mysterious.

Things I've Realized

Ok, I know that last post I promised to start doing this more often, and I'm sorry for not keeping up. It has been a VERY hectic summer. But now I'm back, and I have an idea for a great post. (Well...more like Angela had an idea for a great post, and Jordan before her. But now I am going to make it my own.) A list of all the things I have noticed about myself recently, or that other people notice about me all the time. So here goes...

1. I am extremely mature for my age and that annoys me, so I often act quite immature to compensate.
2. I love chocolate, but I can't eat too much of it.
   
3. I have an extensive vocabulary and sometimes insult people by "dumbing things down" for them.
4. I do actually now have self-confidence, its just taking me a while to get used to it.
5. I love taking care of kids, even though most people think I'm crazy for it.
6. Alcohol is my friend, and my enemy.
   
7. I like feeling special...even if that means feeling like a retard. Haha.
8. I am two different people: the have fun and party till you drop Tracy, and the stay inside and curl up alone with a book Tracy.
   
9. I have a bad habit of caring for people even more after they've hurt me and I know I shouldn't.
10. I look good in green.
    
11. I may not know what I want to do with my life, but I certainly know what I want to get out of life.
12. Crazy? I was crazy once. I lived in a little white room....LMAO
    
13. I like being alone.
    
14. I like being surrounded by people. (I don't get it either...)
15. Friends and friendship are the most important things to me.
16. Standing out from the crowd embarrasses me, so I do what I can to fit in.
17. The books are always better than the movies.
18. I really just need someone who gets me.
19. I want to be loved, but its hard for me to love back.
20. I like to be challenged.
21. I have VERY distinct political views, and I will argue my point for hours.
22. I cant stand people who try to change me, or try to change other people.
23. I'm still in the process of "finding myself".
24. I will do almost anything to make a person happy if I really care about them.
    
25. I LOVE puppies. And kitties. :-)
26. I am a physical person. I like to be able to feel a person next to me, and I am reassured by the smallest touch.
27. I am an emotional person, and strong emotional connections with my friends are important.
28. Sometimes I talk a lot, and sometimes I barely talk at all.
29. I am extremely uncomfortable in new situations.
30. I compare myself to others way too often.
31. I am competitive by nature, but I am non-confrontational.
    
32. Sarcasm is my middle name.
33. I don't like losing friends.
34. I like beaches and sun, AND snow, ice, and mountains.
35. I want to go to Europe.
36. Money is not important to me, but I sure wish I had some.
37. I am absolutely addicted to shopping.
38. I have WAY too many shoes.
39. I am ridiculously OCD, and I will freak out if you even go near my closet.
40. I never really got into video games, I just read a lot.
41. The thought of eating food grosses me out.
42. There is a lot about me that you still don't know, and many of you never will.
    

This One Is For Real

Ok! Ok! Y'all have bugged me enough that I will try to keep up with this blog now. I didn't realize that my private life was so important to all of you people. Oh, thats right. You're NOSY!!!! Sheesh!

So...I'm sick. Getting better, but its late. And I want to be able to make it to class tomorrow since I haven't been in a week. Which means the actual post with substance will come later today, or tomorrow.

Now are you happy?

Post

here. i posted. happy shelley?

Anyone have some music?

So heres the story. I reformatted my hard drive a while back, and ended up losing a lot of my music. I have just gone through all the music on my computer, and I have complied a list of the artists that I lost most or all of my music from. This makes me extremely sad. So, I have decided to call upon my wonderful, almighty friends. Haha. I will post the list here, and if any of you would like to let me have some of your music, that would be amazing. Thanks a bunch! <3

(It is a very long list, I know. And I'm sure there were several artists that i missed, as well. So if you have something that is not on this list that you think I might enjoy, that would be great too!)

3 Doors Down
Aerosmith
AFI
Alicia Keys
Aslyn
Aqualung
Audioslave
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril Lavigne
Bee Gees
Black Label Society
Black Sabbath
Blondie
Blue October
Carrie Underwood
Celine Dion
Chevelle
Christina Aguilera
Coldplay
Collective Soul
Counting Crows
Creed
Crossfade
Damien Rice
Dane Cook
Daniel Beddingfield
Daniel Powter
Darling Violetta
Dashboard Confessional
Dave Matthews Band
David Bowie
Death Cab For Cutie
Deftones
DHT
Drowning Pool
Eli Young Band
Enrique Iglesias
Eurythmics
Evanescence
Eve 6
Faith Hill
Fall Out Boy
Fergie
Final Fantasy
Finch
Finger Eleven
Five For Fighting
Fleetwood Mac
Foo Fighters
Fuel
Garth Brooks
Gary Jules
Goo Goo Dolls
Good Charlotte
Hanson
Haste The Day
Hoobastank
Incubus
Jack Johnson
James Blunt
Justin Timberlake
Killswitch Engage
Korn
Kylie Minogue
Lacuna Coil
LFO
Lifehouse
Limp Bizkit
Lonestar
Lostprophets
Madonna
Mandy Moore
Mariah Carey
Marilyn Manson
Mario
Maroon 5
Martina McBride
Matchbook Romance
Meg & Dia
My Chemical Romance
Nickelback
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana
N’Sync
Oasis
Our Lady Peace
Pantera
Papa Roach
Pearl Jam
Pink Floyd
Puddle of Mudd
Queen
Queens of the Stone Age
Radiohead
Raffi
Randy Travis
Reba MacEntire
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Remy Zero
Rob Thomas
Robbie Williams
Saliva
Sarah Connor
Say Anything
Seether
Sixpence None The Richer
Slipknot
Smashing Pumpkins
Smile Empty Soul
SOD
Stereophonics
Stevie Wonder
Sting
Stone Sour
Sublime
Sum 41
Suzanne Vega
Switchfoot
The All-American Rejects
The Ataris
The Calling
The Exies
The Fray
The Killers
The Postal Service
The Used
The Wallflowers
Tim McGraw
Tracy Lawrence
Train
U2
White Stripes
Whitney Houston
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Yellowcard

Okay! Thanks so much for yall's help! Goodnight!

*UPDATE*
Here are a few i forgot. I'll probably add more as I remember them. Also, I've highlighted the ones i want the most.

Barenaked Ladies
Dierks Bentley
Disney Songs (anything you've got)
Johnny Cash
Josh Groban
Rascal Flatts
The Beach Boys
The Beatles
Three Days Grace

New Projects

So yes, I have not posted in quite a while. Forgive me...I've just been out of it. Let me catch you up. Finished reading the book, which was amazing, and then returned it to the store (in pristine condition) for a full refund. Haha. You can argue with me on the ethicality of that if you must, but I see nothing wrong with it. It is the same as reading a book in the book store, without buying it at all. As long as you dont mistreat it...i would think the book would enjoy having multiple readers. Lol

My next project is to finish all of the crochet projects I have started and never finished. Honestly, I believe my bags full of half finished afghans/scarves/pillows have been sitting there for well over a year, longing to be noticed. So I have finally decided to give them the appreciation they deserve.

This is the one I finished a few days ago. I started the scarf over a year ago now, and after a day or 2 got horribly sidetracked. So when I discovered my crochet again, I did the second half of it one day, and the matching hat the next. Now it is finished. I think it looks ok, but I used self striping yarn and when I had to switch scanes, half way through, the pattern changed. Other than that its fine...except for a slight defect that I decided not to fix, from back when I first started it. Oh well...its only for me anyways.

And this is Nika showing off the next one I need to finish...an afghan I started over the summer, and only got a quarter of the way through. Probably not even that far...