Late Night Crazies

Ok...knowing me, if there is any possibility that you think the proceeding video may disturb you, i suggest you do not watch it. haha. 0:-)

Observation #4

If you are nice to life, life will be nice to you.

Observation #3

Sometimes you hold on to the wrong things for all the right reasons.

Dinner Parties & Breakdowns

So...I did follow through with my idea for the dinner. We had about 10 ppl over at the apartment, and Justin and I made a huge dinner for everyone. I did the meatballs in mushroom sauce, and I also did a sausage and zucchini casserole. I made the cold pesto pasta salad, spinach and artichoke dip, and virgin margaritas. Justin made a coffee cake, and apple bread. We also had just a regular salad. I tried to make an ice cream cake...but it didn't freeze in time for the party. It did freeze later, however, and it came out pretty well, if I do say so myself. Anyways...the party was a smash hit, and I really enjoyed having everyone over to see the apartment.

On a slightly more depressing note, I haven't been doing too well emotionally recently. There is a lot going on for me right now personally, and I have been really stressed out about school, finding a job, and family situations. I kinda had a mini breakdown tonight, but I'm hoping that it helped me come to some conclusions and make some decisions that will help me climb out of the little hole I'm in. I may need help enforcing my decisions, and there are some people (if you think you know what I'm talking about than you are probably one of them) who will have to help me with that. Sorry to be so cryptic...I just dont feel like discussing certain things on a public blog. ANYWAYS...the point is that if I have a been a little short with you recently, or if I have seemed out of character or just completely out of it, I apologize. Hopefully things will start to improve soon.

Good luck to everyone starting school tomorrow!!! (Or I guess today...lol. I should really sleep, huh?)

Luv yallz!
~Trish

I Should Use My Kitchen

I'm going to start cooking. Cooking sounds fun. Now that I have my apartment, I have a kitchen that I can easily use...so why not? I'm going to try to start tomorrow...but that may or may not happen depending on what people's dinner plans are. I will, however, go buy groceries tomorrow. I think I'm going to start with a recipe I found for meatballs in mushroom soup, and accompany that with a simple cold pesto pasta salad. Anybody want to join me? :-)

Observation #2

Men are bad for a Woman's sanity.

Observation #1

Alcohol is the devil.

Add Joy to Your Daily Life

Pay as much attention to the things that are working positively in your life as you do to those that are giving you trouble.

Rake a big pile of leaves every fall and jump in it with someone you love.

Memorize your favorite love poem.

Learn three knock-knock jokes so you will always be ready to entertain children.

Don't let weeds grow around your dreams.

Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.

Regardless of the situation, react with class.

Let some things remain mysterious.

Things I've Realized

Ok, I know that last post I promised to start doing this more often, and I'm sorry for not keeping up. It has been a VERY hectic summer. But now I'm back, and I have an idea for a great post. (Well...more like Angela had an idea for a great post, and Jordan before her. But now I am going to make it my own.) A list of all the things I have noticed about myself recently, or that other people notice about me all the time. So here goes...

1. I am extremely mature for my age and that annoys me, so I often act quite immature to compensate.
2. I love chocolate, but I can't eat too much of it.
   
3. I have an extensive vocabulary and sometimes insult people by "dumbing things down" for them.
4. I do actually now have self-confidence, its just taking me a while to get used to it.
5. I love taking care of kids, even though most people think I'm crazy for it.
6. Alcohol is my friend, and my enemy.
   
7. I like feeling special...even if that means feeling like a retard. Haha.
8. I am two different people: the have fun and party till you drop Tracy, and the stay inside and curl up alone with a book Tracy.
   
9. I have a bad habit of caring for people even more after they've hurt me and I know I shouldn't.
10. I look good in green.
    
11. I may not know what I want to do with my life, but I certainly know what I want to get out of life.
12. Crazy? I was crazy once. I lived in a little white room....LMAO
    
13. I like being alone.
    
14. I like being surrounded by people. (I don't get it either...)
15. Friends and friendship are the most important things to me.
16. Standing out from the crowd embarrasses me, so I do what I can to fit in.
17. The books are always better than the movies.
18. I really just need someone who gets me.
19. I want to be loved, but its hard for me to love back.
20. I like to be challenged.
21. I have VERY distinct political views, and I will argue my point for hours.
22. I cant stand people who try to change me, or try to change other people.
23. I'm still in the process of "finding myself".
24. I will do almost anything to make a person happy if I really care about them.
    
25. I LOVE puppies. And kitties. :-)
26. I am a physical person. I like to be able to feel a person next to me, and I am reassured by the smallest touch.
27. I am an emotional person, and strong emotional connections with my friends are important.
28. Sometimes I talk a lot, and sometimes I barely talk at all.
29. I am extremely uncomfortable in new situations.
30. I compare myself to others way too often.
31. I am competitive by nature, but I am non-confrontational.
    
32. Sarcasm is my middle name.
33. I don't like losing friends.
34. I like beaches and sun, AND snow, ice, and mountains.
35. I want to go to Europe.
36. Money is not important to me, but I sure wish I had some.
37. I am absolutely addicted to shopping.
38. I have WAY too many shoes.
39. I am ridiculously OCD, and I will freak out if you even go near my closet.
40. I never really got into video games, I just read a lot.
41. The thought of eating food grosses me out.
42. There is a lot about me that you still don't know, and many of you never will.